WHEN TIME HAS MENDED MY HUMPTY DUMPTY HEART

By Keza/Spiritedsoul And Charles Robert Lindholm

Why Does A Heart
That Loves
So Deeply,
Have To Suffer,
Have To Get Broken,
Once Again

Over And Over
Time After Time
Falling For Lovers
That Will Never
Stay Mine

It Can’t Keep Going
On This Way, When Can I Have One
That Won’t Walk Away

I Give My Heart
But When Will I I Learn,
That I Need To Have One,
In Return,
From One That Will
Love Me Forever

Too Many Memories
Still Stay In My Mind
Long Lost Lovers
From  A Far Away Time

Haunting My Dreams
And Whispering Lies
Bringing Back Heartaches
And Tears To My Eyes

How Long Must I Wait
For Time To Heal
The Scars And The Hurts
I’m Forced To Feel

No One Is Flawless
Least Of All Me,
But True Love
Accepts Us
And Let’s Us Be,
Loved
In Spite Of It All

And So I Hope,
My Lips Will Soon Kiss
My Forever Lover,
Once Time Has Mended
My Humpty Dumpty Heart

Copyright © 2020 Keza-Spiritedsoul And Charles Robert Lindholm-The Reluctant Poet
All Rights Reserved – 09-11-2020 – 6:30 A.M.

Writing with Keza is such a pleasure! I so love it because it is like magic!!
Always hope for more!!!
Chuck

ON BECOMING A WRITER: CHUCK LINDHOLM

The best way to learn about me and my experience writing is to read my post from when I was a Barista at the Go Dog Go Cafe titled – On Becoming A Writer: Chuck Lindholm (see below)

An important part of every writer’s journey is the transition from seeing ourselves as “someone who writes” to seeing ourselves as writers.  This is the way it worked for me!

On Becoming A Writer: Chuck Lindholm

MARCH 21, 2018 / BRAVEANDRECKLESSBLOG

Photo circa 1994

My Moniker is “The Reluctant Poet”!  I guess that tells you a lot about my journey to becoming a poet/writer.  My given name is Charles Robert Lindholm but I answer to Chuck.  Thanks for taking time to read a little bit about me.  I’m hoping that some of what I say may be of some inspiration or encouragement to you on your journey as a writer/poet.

My personal definition of a great poet/writer is “A great poet/writer is someone whose words reach out and touch the heart of the reader”  If you are blessed as a writer to have your reader, be kind and thoughtful enough to tell you how what you wrote touched them, then you are truly blessed.  That’s why I have a Contact Page!!!  Hearing feedback from readers is the very best
reward a writer can receive!

When did you start writing?

Funny when I think back on the start of me writing!  It was really as simple as doing a Senior English class assignment in high school.  Nothing you would think of as “starting the ball rolling” on my interest in writing poetry.  Poetry is what I love to write most, but if you read some of my posts you will know I write about some of my musings, peeves and lighthearted humorous things.

Our assignment was a two phase project – #1 Write two love poems – at least 7 lines each; #2 Illustrate a poem by a major poet with graphics – photos cut from magazines, photos, drawings or whatever we thought illustrated what the poet was saying.

I don’t have copies of what I wrote – lucky for everyone, but I did put the illustration of Robert Frost’s “The Road Not Taken” in a scrapbook along with Sidney Lanier’s “The Song Of The Chattahochee”  (I love this poem and you may too).  I was blessed to have my Grandma’s stack of years and years of old Arizona Highway magazines to go through for photos!  Robert Frost’s works hooked me on poetry.  Over the years I wrote a poem from time to time but did not become addicted until the end of my second marriage in 1996.

It seems that emotional pain and heartache are a motivating inspiration for writing poetry, and not all rosy, flowery and happy either.  Poetry seems to end up being the voice of the soul.  It is nice that poetry covers the whole horizon of emotions and viewpoints.

I did get an A on my project and that was the seed that grew into my writing poetry.  Perhaps, you can share on your blog or at The Cafe how you got infected with the urge to write and share your words with others!  It’s like hearing how a couple met.  Always an interesting story!

What kind of writing do you do?

I tend to favor writing poetry and an occasional “Opinion type” of piece.  My writing is not cerebral, complex, dark or fantasy (rarely).  If you check my posts they are simple, usually straightforward, rhyming, sometimes,  but not all the time, and deal with human relationships from sad to happy and some humorous things.

I have come to enjoy writing Haiku (and now Elfchens) and I’m still learning about how much I don’t know about poetry.  Here’s the great thing about poetry – it’s like abstract art.  You write it for your own inner satisfaction and if someone else likes it great, that’s a bonus.  It kind of goes with the quote I like “Not Everyone Likes You, But Not Everyone Matters!”  Write what your soul has to say after listening to the whispers from the Universe!

Where do you find inspiration for your writing?

I am hoping that this is where you will take away a small piece of advice from me that you will carry with you always, and maybe remember me! Ha!

This is not original with me but I have found it to be the source of a large part of my writing.  The seed of the idea is from “Poemcrazy – Freeing your life with words” (check out the reviews on Amazon) and I highly recommend that you own a copy.

Pay attention to life and your surroundings, what you see, what you hear, what you read, what you feel, the writings and stories of others!  Use your mind as a mental camera.  Start keeping a Word Bank/Word Pool where you write down words, phrases, titles, topics, lines from movies or anything else that hits your mind and makes you smile, laugh, cry, get misty, get mad or be in awe.

Write it down, immediately before you forget.  I suggest you keep a tiny spiral notepad but honestly now with audio recording features on smartphones you can use them, but if you do be sure and transcribe what you entered on paper or computer (just remember computers crash and take all your work to Writer’s Heaven/Hell – whichever).

They say, who are these “They”, you should write what you know about.  My response to that is, go learn about what you want to write about.  I have been able to imagine myself in the position of the person or thing I’m writing about in the same way an actor takes on a role.  See it, feel it – be and feel the same as your subject/topic.  Describe the details, the colors, the shapes, the smells, the taste, the way it makes you feel, the way others feel.  Think of writing as painting word pictures!

I love it when I’m reading a writer and a word or phrase hits me and I go to enter it in my Word Bank but before I can, I start getting a “Stream of Consciousness” flow and end up writing a piece before it gets entered.  Afterward I enter it in my Word Bank with credit to the source.

The long and short of it is my inspiration comes from things that hit my heart and/or soul and make me go – Wow and want to share the feeling/thought!

Be careful!  I may end up finding a seed of inspiration in one of your works!!  I hope so!  Being inspired to write from what another writer has written is the biggest thrill in writing for you and the author!

What are you current writing rituals/practices? 

Ah, this is an interesting question.  Everyone seems to have a different way of doing things which is why we have the cliche – “To each their own”.

The most productive and enjoyable way I write is in a secluded, silent and usually dark place with a dim light or none at all (see below) and usually late at night or in the early hours of the morning (The Backside Of The Night).  I have often started a poem after going to bed for the night.  I lay there for a few minutes only to have words start streaming into my head.  This ends my time in bed until I can go and capture these words on paper.

I find it helpful to close my eyes and visualize what I’m writing about and then go word by word and line by line in my head reciting each line and build line upon line until I have about 8 to 10 lines.  Then I capture that on paper and then go back and use that same process to keep adding lines until the piece is finished.

After I have a piece written down I like to enter it into the computer, format it and save it.  Then I go back and recite the piece out loud several times to be sure I like the feel, flow and sound of it.  After that I add the copyright notice at the bottom and I’m done.

When did you start thinking of yourself as a writer?

Was Van Gough a painter?  Not judged by the opinions of his time.  He was a painter in his mind.  Judged by the opinions of today?  He is one of the greatest, judged by money and fame!  So what opinion really mattered?  Van Gough’s opinion of himself!!  Our opinion of ourselves is the one that matters!  Make your opinion of yourself into your reality!

I guess for me, I started to think of myself as a poet after I had about 400 poems written during the two year period after the end of my second marriage.  Even then it seemed doubtful.  I was motivated by pain and heartache.  And didn’t like the idea of having to be in that state before I could write.  Sort of like the one hit wonder songwriters who write a hit and can never do it again.

I told my daughter, Charmin, I was wanting to do something with my poems.  Two days later she sent me an email that informed me that I now had a WordPress.com blog.  She said, “I’m helping you face your fears, I’m pushing you so you can fly”.  I will always be forever thankful for her gift!!

Up until I started blogging on WordPress, my writing was sporadic, with long dry spells of months between a poem or two and that was disheartening.  It was hard to think of myself as a writer when it was such a hit and miss experience.

Once I realized that I was going to run through my Archive in a hurry and would need to start writing most every day, I started writing off prompts and then put my Word Bank to use.  Now most of my work is split 50/50 between self generated work and work inspired from seeds of inspiration from others.

Everyone has their own moment when they accepted and believed that “I Am A Writer”  For me, it came when I shared a poem with a Friend who had lost his wife of almost 50 years.  He responded and told me how much the poem meant to him and that it had made him cry.  He wanted to have it printed in the Memorial program and I approved and also offered to recite it if he wanted (still don’t know what possessed me to do that). He said, he would love it!!

Standing in front of 150 people looking at me and waiting to hear what I had to share was a bit intimidating, until I looked at my friend and his family and knew I was sharing words about his wife and their life together that he could not emotionally share for himself.  I recited my poem “A Flickering Soul” for him!  This was the first time I had ever shared anything I had written with more than one person at a time.  As I sat down afterward I whispered a loud to myself, I guess I am a Poet!!

What are your future writing goals?

My writing goals crystallized just before my 50th High School Reunion when I decided I wanted to unlock the poems gathering dust and let them be sent out into the world.  I want to have at least one “book, book” and to expand the exposure of my work in whatever way I can.  Still looking into the best way to get that goal met.

Thanks!

I appreciate you taking time to get to know me better!  Please come visit me on my blog – The Reluctant Poet.  Please feel free to come rummage through my archives!

Most of my personal writings are found in 2017 – 2018.  I have been stockpiling my original writings since 2019 to put together in two books of poetry.  From 2019 through 2020 I have had the privilege and honor to write in collaboration with other great writers while also sharing the work of other writers on WordPress.com on my blog via reblogs.  I know you will enjoy these great writings too! Please come and visit.

Chuck Lindholm
The Reluctant Poet

A Flickering Soul – see below

Why don’t you try answering these questions on your blog to share with your followers and the world?

Questions:

  • When did you start writing?
  • What kind of writing do you do?
  • Where do you find inspiration for your writing?
  • What are your current writing rituals/practices?
  • When did you start thinking of yourself as a writer?
  • What are your writing goals?

Best Wishes and May Your Dreams Come True!

Chuck Lindholm
The Reluctant Poet

P.S.  Wanted to leave you with a little quote you should
leave on the imaginary mirror in your head, or bathroom to help you remember:

“What have you done today, to make your dreams come true?”
I have adapted this poem for a husband, and children too.

A FLICKERING SOUL

OCTOBER 26, 2017 ~ THERELUCTANTPOET ~ EDIT

By Charles Robert Lindholm

She was a candle in the wind
that brightened up
the darkness of the night
with the light she
brought into my life

She warmed my heart
with her flame
as it flickered
and fluttered
inside her soul
and protected me
from the cold
and lonely
winters of life

My days were always
brighter with her
by my side
and for me
the sun could
not compete
with her

A candle in the wind
that flickered
and fluttered 

A Flickering Soul
a beautiful flame
that I shall
love forever

Copyright © 2017 Charles Robert Lindholm – All Rights Reserved